Why I want to go back in timeWhen I think about going back in time it usually deals with two different types of memories. One type of memory is of fun times that I wish I could go back and relive. The other type of memory is of regrets that I would like to go back and fix. The time I felt that life was so much fun was in my last year of junior high school. I always hung around with my best friends and laughed. Although I had worries about the entrance exam for high school, I met wonderful friends during this time. Although thinking about going back to that time makes me smile, I think going back to times I regret would be more important. I feel that if I could go back in time and fix one of my greatest regrets my life would be much different now.
When I was a 7 or 8 year old elementary school student I was very quiet and shy. I was very afraid of other people, so I could not state my opinion about anything. Therefore, I didn’t have many friends in the class. I did not like my character at this time, but I felt like there was nothing I could do. One day I made a big mistake that I will never forget. It shows what a shy girl I was. It was class time, we had an argument, and I forgot what our topic was. However, our teacher told us to say something at least one time during the class. Of course I was sure that I had to say something, therefore I thought hard and made my opinion. I was so ashamed to say my opinion in front of the rest of the class, because everybody would be looking at me. I could not bear this at the time. So in the end, I could not say anything during this class. I thought it was over, and I was finished, but the teacher would not let me go. After the class he got so angry. There were a few other students who did not say anything like me. He made us apologize for our mistakes. He made us walk around the class room and apologize to all of our classmates. I was terribly ashamed. After this I realized that it would be better to be outspoken during class. It would bring me less attention.
What I want to say is that if I could go to back this time, I would do it better. Now I am so different from that shy young girl. It is unbelievable that now I am outgoing, sociable, and love talking with friends. If I could go back to that time, I would say something during that class with no shame. Perhaps it would have been a natural thing for you, but it was a really hard thing for me.
As I said, I am different now because I did not like having a quiet character. However, I recently began to think deeply about whether or not having a lively character is best. As I changed, the people around me changed as well. When I was quiet and shy people around me were so kind and treated me well. Now, they make jokes at my expense and do not treat me well. Sometimes I feel sad. It sounds a little bit confusing. I have come to a conclusion. It is that no matter how shy or positive, the character you have now is the best. There are good points to both. In the past, I was not positive and not a leader, but now I can love myself as I am.
In the end, what I want to say is whenever you want to go back in time, you should be mor determined to live the best in the situation you are in now.
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